When Food is all There Is
The thoughts begin from the moment you wake. Today you’ll eat this and stick perfectly with your diet. You’ll drink all the water and eat only veggies or only protein or only. . . The thoughts swirl through your mind as to how you’re going to restrict yourselves when you’re with your friends. You won’t drink alcohol, you won’t pick at the appetizers, of course you’ll fully avoid the bread. The constant obsession with food. Spending all your free thoughts ruminating on how you’re going to or not going to eat. It’s exhausting. What if you stopped. What if you set aside the mental energy and asked yourself what you want to fill your thoughts with. This may seem like a shockingly foreign idea. If you’re not thinking about your diet, you could possibly lose control. It’s scary, isn’t it. This belief that we have to so completely dominate our thoughts, so as to dominate our body, so that we can be worthy.
Isn’t that what this is really all it’s about? If we gain weight, who will love us? If we don’t fit in our clothes, what would people think? How can we gain the respect of our children if our weight isn’t in our control? Perhaps you are reading this and thinking this is insane or maybe you’re reading this and recognizing this is part of your story. I get it. I really do. Food is a consuming thought when we attach it to our worth. More so it is a dominating belief when we attach it to our health. If I eat these foods then I’ll have an allergic reaction. If I eat this, then my autoimmune disease will flair up and everything will hurt.
Food exists with so much fear. We want to be healthy, we want to live well, and yet we’re constantly obsessing about how to eat or what to eat or when to eat.
The more that you follow the rabbit hole of diet you will find constant contradiction. How do you even navigate the chaos that is the billion dollar diet industry. A machine that has attached itself to your health, your value, and your beauty. Then told you that you’re doing it wrong and you need to do better. We spin and spin trying so hard to get it right. At which point, when we feel overwhelmed and completely undone, we binge on all the things we’re never going to eat again.
In the middle of all of this, is a person desperately trying to find safety and love and protection. So, when everything else fails, they dig into a bag of chips or pull out a pint of ice cream. Then, there is the obsessive thought that there is something wrong with them. See, they have no control, they have to pull themselves back and try harder. Start another diet. Fix the places of shame that lead them to eat beyond full.
If any of this resounds with you, I’m so sorry! I get it. I’ve been there. You are worth changing the thoughts and bringing light into your life. It’s a tricky process because it requires stepping out of the obsessions that most of the people in our world are striving toward. It looks like connecting to yourself and rewriting your story. Invite your true self into the process and learn how to feed and nourish yourself outside of the rules, restriction, and fear. This doesn’t happen overnight. It doesn’t change when we challenge the story and rewrite our beliefs. It’s slower, more intuitive, and deeply connected to our truest self.
If food is ruling your life and your thoughts, I’d like to invite you to schedule a free consultation. You are powerful. You can change your story and rewrite your journey. You can be empowered with your food choices and make decisions that honor your goals. I would love to work with you. In the meantime, take some time to confront the thoughts that fill your mind. Are they serving you. How much weight have you lost thinking about all the things you aren’t going to have? How many times have you told yourself you aren’t going to eat something and then found yourself face deep in the forbidden? Let’s journey out of this wilderness to the place where you get to stand on the mountain top owned by no one, but yourself.
